gobblegobble.

well, i won’t go into details, but apparently venting online is bad for you.

half my tumblr has just become irrelevant.

have so much i want to say, but i should be doing other things

if i’m getting 8 hours or more sleep, i ain’t working hard enough.

well firstly, i’m really bored atm, so i’ve decided to post something

in short, i’d just like to say that i am absolutely loving life atm !

starting uni has definitely been the best thing to ever happen to me. never mind all the hour long trips to get to uni, i love it all

i just have such a positive outlook on life now. this year is going to be amazing. i already thought that before the year even started. now it’s confirmed. at least it’s good atm… i don’t want to jinx myself..

i feel reinvigorated in a way i’ve never felt before. just so damn positive.

i can’t quite put my finger on it.

edit: omg, mum, right on que. just has to be such a downer

good on you !

i feel so strongly about this issue that i am sacrificing sleep to get my opinion out, because i’m sure there will be no one else who shares the same opinion as me, so i can’t talk to anyone about it

anyway, if you don’t know who tristan barker is and you live in aus or nz, then you’re living under a rock. go google him and get all the biased media rabble that is bound to turn up there

bascially he is a youtuber who rants about certain things. he’s labelled an ‘internet troll’ because he is ‘brave’ enough (more like exceedingly stupid), to voice his extremely controversial opinions on topics such as suicides, bullying and murder

i don’t doubt that he is one of the biggest dickheads i’ve ever seen in my life, but i occasionally watch his videos because i find them interesting. he takes a realistic view of the world that i can relate with. almost 100% of the time, the realistic view is the most negative view, this is why he gets in trouble for what he says.

the reason i’m typing this is because he has been getting a lot of media exposure recently, doing interviews and the like on tv. one thing coming out of these news stories really makes me mad.

today channel 7 aired an interview they had with him in which portions of his videos were included in the story. they picked the worst possible portions of his videos to place into the story, making him look like a heartless monster when in reality, they left out crucial parts of the videos in which he continues on to say something that shows he’s not a complete dick.

eg: something equivalent to
section aired on tv: ’ i don’t give a fuck that 100 people were killed ‘
section left out: ‘but that’s because people die everyday in wars and they never get recognised, why are these people more special than the hundreds of other people dying and suffering?’

that’s what angers me. they make him look SOOOOOOOOOO bad to anyone who doesn’t watch his videos. like i said, i know he’s a complete dickhead, but the fact he was taken so grossly out of context 3 or 4 times in that news story just makes me think so low of the media in general.

the things the media will do to have a story.

it’s sad when you drift from friends.
i don’t think that friends can go from talking everyday to barely talking in a matter of days, as much as some people would like to say that, that can happen, but either way, it’s all bad.

for me, i could feel it
drifting over a handful of months. growing further and further apart, until the one person i cared about so much, i just didn’t really care about anymore.

‘best friends for life’ was mentioned a few times between us. they were just empty words. so typical in this world of ours, where words or phrases with such significant meanings, now bear little to no meaning.

i’m currently reading this book, and there’s a little convo in it that i like, between two friends.
one asks the other why they’re friends and the person replies with ‘i guess we’re friends because i hate you a little bit less than everyone else’

it’s really sad to see someone who used to be so important to me, just be thrown into the pile of everything else i don’t care about

through all my 18 years of life i have progressively stopped caring about most things. i guess you could say i went from the extreme of caring too much, to the extreme of caring too little, in the space of 18 years. 

what i’ve learnt through my life, is that caring too much will only leave you with pain. for me, the less i care about, the less problems i have. having said that, just because i really don’t care about much, doesn’t mean that i’m not happy. it comes across as cold, but it’s just who i am.